rain, rain, keep a'coming.

As I'm sitting here at NuVibe, a really cool coffee shop, I've done a bit of thinking about the last few weeks. I don't even remember the last time I posted.. sheesh!

Today is Father's Day. I was not able to be around my Dad, which is actually really sad if you think about it.

I'm 22 years old and I'm living in a city of like 60,000 people. I live 1 hour from my parents and I never make it home. I have friends in Omaha that get mad at me for not visiting. Well, why don't you visit here? I recently missed my cousin's 21st birthday because of work. My cousins/siblings were pissed. Uh, hello. They do not realize how busy my life is. It's not that easy to take work off. It's not that easy to stop my life to accomodate yours. I'm sick of people trying to take advantage of me, trying to push me around to do what they want to do. I want to do something for me. My family is going down to the lake for the 4th, I'm so jealous, but the instant that my sister, brother, mother AND father (all at seperate instances) told me I needed to take work off to come down. It made me realize how much I don't want to go down there anymore. Fuck. I work full-time, I go to school full-time, I rarely make it out on the weekends BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TIME. It's just so frustrating. I can;t wait to be out on my own. Out of college, with my own apartment and my own time.

This rant sucks.

Boys suck. I'm still in love with the one who broke my heart. I try to hang out with others, but they like to ditch me. It's just getting old. I want to find a man who could win my heart over instantly. I can always dream, but what if when I move to (or just travel) Europe I meet this amazing man. Orrrr I have this crazy idea of when I move to DC that I'll meet the future president of the US. HAHAHAHA. I like that one the best. {a girl can always dream}

It's been raining for like the last month. It's pretty great, other than the flooding, that's not great at all. I like the rain, mostly when it storms though. I like the thunder and the cool weather it brings. It makes me wish I had someone to lay in bed with all day or just sit on the porch, drink coffee (or a beer) and just talk about anything...

I. am. pathetic. [must be that rain]

I need to make better use of my time (obviously)
I have a paper due tomorrow and I need to catch up on my reading...
later gator