Summahhh

I haven't updated since the weekend. Man did I need that vacation. It was spent driving halfway to KC to meet Eric. So we went out and saw Jaycie and Erin, whom I haven't seen in forever! Then waking up at the crack of dawn to drive 4 hours to Kimberling City. Talk about major think time.
Relaxing on the lake was the remedy I needed. In between crying and thinking about what I want to do with my life, I had so much fun.

Things I pondered was what went wrong between me and Aaron. It's been 2 months, I know. Don't remind me, but I'm not over him. I just realized this but I think I wanted to truly spend the rest of my life with him. That's why I can't get over him. I don't want to think about it anymore though, I just want to get over him. It doesn't help when he texts me things like "I know it's not easy, because if I were to see you now I would feel the same way it's not like we didn't have chemistry." What the fuck is that supposed to mean?

Something else was what I wanted to do with my life. With my best friends moving halfway across the country and Blake moving 5 hours away.. it made me realize I don't want to stay in Nebraska. I will probably stay for a year or two, but I want to move. I want to see the country and possibly the world. I know it's ambitious, but I want to set a goal and meet it.

I was also thinking about my Grandma. I spend my last hour in Kimberling City with her. We hung out in her garden and talked flowers. I love flowers and she gave me that love and appreciation for them. This whole cancer thing has really thrown our family train off the track. I'm just scared and I know she's scared. All we can do is pray and hope for the best.


School is winding down for the first session and I couldn't be more pleased. I dominated my tennis class, but not really. It was so much fun and I'm glad I could learn a lifetime sport. Coaching Philosophy is interesting, but I'm happy it's over!! We are watching Hoosiers today. Thank you coach Brothers for making me despise this movie.

Weekend is pretty free with reffing tomorrow and work on Sunday. Should be a beautiful weekend!
Ciao.